I wasn’t sure if I should continue blogging… I seem to lack the diligence to post weekly like I was planning, and there are some things I just can’t seem to fix. Like the comments, I keep trying to set them up, and nothing happens beyond that point, except me or someone I know noticing the “comments closed” button on the bottom of each post. But… (chuckle) looks like you guys are stuck with me on here for another year. I think it would be easier to write these kind of posts on Facebook or something.
A lot has happened in the last few months… new challenges, like my parents moved, and what’s funny is the weekend after the moved (03/02)… I have an accident in my house. I slipped while cleaning, and my knee dislocates (this is just as pleasant as it sounds- gag). This is not my first rodeo, but I know something is different this time because while it doesn’t hurt as bad as the first time, it is definitely more painful than the 2nd and 3rd. (YES, this makes #4). So I call my parents, and I spend the night at their place, since it was already past 8 and I didn’t think it was bad enough for the ER. So I go to the doctor’s office the next day, and get issued a new brace and crutches. They had taken X-rays and the doctor was kind of patronizing (it was my first time seeing this guy, but he seemed like he couldn’t care less).
About a week later, it is still interfering with my capabilities, and painful, so I go to an ortho specialist my father went to when he had his motorcycle accident and had to have knee surgery. They take more X-rays and schedule an MRI to tell me “you have a torn ligament and a -“micro-something “fracture on your tibia” And there was a term used on the results: chronic avulsion. Which basically means there is all this damage in your knee from previous fractures (that I knew nothing about)…. With these results, I took it to three other medical background people I knew – looking for consistency (I have a mistrust because of past experiences). I got it – and all of them recommended surgery after talking to me about it. I was scheduled for a CT, and finally surgery.
I was expecting to wait a couple months at least, but they got me in last week. So I am and have been recuperating at my parent’s, and am trying to stay positive. It’s getting frustrating, and I still have a long journey of healing ahead of me, but I know God is with me. He gives me obstacles like this to teach me something; have to focus on the bigger picture rather than the small window I am seeing/feeling right now.
So… what are you trying to teach me, Lord?
